Thursday, April 22, 2010
Foreign entity
How does it feel to have a broken femur? Well, I am quite sure that they took my old leg and replaced it with someone else's. My leg is not black and blue, has a knee cap and moves on demand. This foreign entity attached to my body does not. I have never talked to my limbs before, and now I find myself encouraging and cursing my new leg. "Come on you can do it! Slide into the shoe...get up onto the bed." My new leg has really bad self esteem. Yesterday was my first day of physio in my home, and I kept assuring the therapist that the leg he was looking at and trying to work with was not mine. He held his hand 4 inches off the ground and told me to kick it. I concentrated, breathed deeply, perspired in fear, psyched myself up and told my foot to lift. It just sat there...my leg wouldn't have let me down.
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aww...Tammy I've been there with my leg too, right knee actually...not as extreme but loss the use of it for weeks after a mountain bike accident. I cried and cried when I told it to move and it just hung there. Day after day just praying my leg would LISTEN! Gives the expression "hang in there" new meaning when you are working so hard for them to stop just hanging there. lol! Sandi B
ReplyDeleteThat must be so tough, Tammy! How discouraging! But I'm sure as the days & weeks go on you will find great encouragement as this foreign leg becomes your friend again!
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